I JUST WANT TO WRITE

I see myself as fearless and when I do get scared I just plain refuse to bow to fear. I go through life under the conviction that success is my only option. I am not one to feel sorry for myself the times I cry is usually out of anger more than pity or when I am fighting for what is mine. I never give myself the option of indulging in self pity.I learned a long time ago that pity parties are not be attended let alone thrown. The only time i cry without shame it is when I am pouring myself out to the Lord-he is the only one who knows me better than I know myself. I push myself, I push those around me.I love life,laughing and talking to people who get me otherwise I know how to keep my mouth shut.I don't fall easily in love and when I  do its special.I try to do right by everyone,help where I can.I am a dreamer, I dream big.Have big goals,want to see the world,will love to raise you to be friends of the world,to be comfortable with every race,nation or greed. I am passionate about my faith and plan to pass this on to you.I love family. I wish I could say I am simple but I am not! I sometimes want to be simple but I know too much ,too much has been invested in me to just be simple.With age I've learned to choose my battles and at the risk of sounding arrogant I win all the time. If  I haven't won its simply means its not over! I have my tough days like today but  I know its all but a process. Like my mother always say the day was good because the Lord was in it(sounds so much better when she says it especially cause she says it in sotho). I am good at not getting over things and working on a balance,need to get over certain things and certain people.......THIS IS ME WRITING MY THOUGHTS DOWN-THERAPY