Its been a while since I wrote and this morning I feel like I need to vent...... I could just break down and cry but its not like me to do that. In fact I don't think I remember how to, I feel the tears wanting to come out but its like  I have no clue how to just be- I  miss my dad. I just want to hear his voice,hear him cheer me on. OK now the tears are coming out and I hate it eish, my make-up.........! I hear the words of Rev Ken on Sunday talking 'bout the grace of God, I need increase in that just about now. I need a hug, I've never been one to be needy maybe I should go see the new Eddy Murphy's movie,my sister says its so so!Yeah that's the plan all by myself big screen and I think I ll be fine. I can do this!!!!!